Failure

什么事都搞不定。人际关系真有那么难吗？学习真有那么重要吗？Life is a mess. I want something real.

快要Prelim了

I scored 29 for my English oral

Speechless

A score that is neither too high nor too low

So I don't need to laugh or to cry.

Life is like this

Prelim is coming

I am really stressed

Too many things happened

Science practical made me feel like an idiot.

Ho Ho

Be a happy girl

Start reviewing my friends!

快乐男声总冠军花落西安

我在想，近了近了，下次会不会有咸阳的帅哥去参选啊。哦哈哈哈。

西安也不错，西咸都一体化了。我们北方除了将军，也是有会唱歌的男生的啊。哈哈。南方男人一个个感觉都弱不禁风。自我感觉北方的女生，如同我，比那些娘娘腔强多了。这就是我们北方人的本色。西安是故都，咸阳更古啊。虽然说这个经济文化各方面都让人无语，但我还是喜欢咸阳，生我养我的地方，培育我性格人生观的地方。

易建联被炮轰

其实我这人不怎么看新闻的。今天偶尔就瞅着了易建联被那个什么黄健翔给骂了。其实对这事情我的了解几乎为零。但我还是小小同情一下易建联。果然，人越出名就越有着争议啊。且不说他的话（无论到哪里，我都会好好打球。因为我背后背着'中国'，代表着13亿人口。）到底是不是乱讲话，到底是不是悲哀。人家一个人在NBA想闯出点事业多不容易啊。像我只不过留在了个新加坡，只不过是个小小的留学生，留在一个不怎么样的学校，各方面素质也不怎么样，我还是觉得各方面要做得规规矩矩，不要丢中国人的脸。不管如何，我觉得大家心境差不多，尽管人家是高高在上的大球员。高处不胜寒啊。

没什么可批评的。我觉得支持才重要。即使那个姓黄的觉得人家话说得真有问题，也可以采用温和方式提出。而他现在的炮轰，让我的脑海浮现出了母猪发情的景象。世界上就是有一些人，巴不得别人不知道他们的存在啊。以为自己有才，就"语不惊人死不休"，想拿到百分之百的注视率。呵呵，真可笑啊。

兴许我是觉得自己的境遇也够悲哀的了，什么事都做不好。我当然太平凡了，不会有人浪费口水说我的，但我依然渴望支持，直到有人总会在我快倒下的时候扶起我，在我被别人否定时鼓励我。

再想想那些炮轰，总觉得是为了显示自己多么有性格而放上去的。这没什么不可能的。像一个暴发户，需要不停地花钱，向别人显示自己是有钱的。

只不过，暴发户花钱那是为祖国经济建设作贡献，而因为爱乱叫而对别人妄加批评的人，则是丝毫没有向自己有没有立场，恨不得把白抹成黑来表现自己与众不同的人。

Leaving Band

Yesterday the symphonic band, my CCA, completed their final performance. He Miao and I got our certificates. We actually went on stage to receive the certificate, despite the fact that we didn't join the performance at all. After that, we received a lot of cards from our section mates, but they didn't cheer us up. I felt that the words on the all the cards were actually the same, nothing more than wishing us to get to the junior college of our dreams.

However, I knew clearly that I deserve no more than that. I sometimes felt that I was completely a failure, who only blew things up. Everything I had done couldn't be seen as contributions. After all I had no ability to contribute anything. That was sad. That was me.

I had no ability to learn percussion, or to perform. I could not stand to look into the teachers' eyes. I couldn't stand to stay with band any more. Every time I entered the band room I felt pressure and depress. I couldn't cope with the life here. Frankly speaking I was not too stupid, but rather too lazy to learn. I valued my curriculum and study much more than band. That's why I failed. Besides that, I often got nervous. I could finish a music part by myself easily, but not when someone was around, checking my skills.

I am not sure whether I am able to adapt to the life here in Singapore. I participated in math and science competitions, projects and performance. But I seemed to be a failure every time.

Leaving band gives me a complex feeling. I don't want to describe it. But the thing is, I am free now. No matter what a stupid idiot I have been, no matter how my fellows and teachers view me or even despise me, I finally get back to my ordinary days, and my direction is never changed. I am gonna work hard. I am going to Hwa Chong, the Junior College of my dream.

爱就一个字

拨开天空的乌云　像蓝丝绒一样美丽
我为你翻山越岭　却无心看风景
我想你　身不由己　每个念头有新的梦境
但愿你没忘记　我永远保护你
不管风雨的打击　全心全意

两个人相互辉映　光芒盛过夜晚繁星
我为你翻山越岭　却无心看风景
我向你鼓足勇气　凭爱情地图散播讯息
但愿你没忘记　我永远保护你
从此不必再流浪找寻

爱就一个字　我只说一次
你知道我只会用行动表示
野花太放肆　守住了坚持
看我为你孤注一掷

爱就一个字　我只说一次
恐怕听见的人勾起了相思
热闹的城市　搜索你的影子
让你幸福我愿意试
(让你幸福是我一生在乎的事)

Muji- No Brand

想买个MUJI的铅笔盒

我好傻噢