看了《碧血剑》前两集的感觉。。。

造型太垃圾了！
袁承志搞得跟丐帮弟子一样。窦智孔本来也算帅了。怎么一演古装就那么傻啊？那个造型绝对火上浇油，更显其傻。
我还发现黄圣依的脸真的是很长啊。古装扮相一点儿都不美。那个头型，怎么说呢，感觉脸的左右两侧是垂直下来的，跟峭壁一样，而且很深，又没点儿头发遮盖。实在没法说，就是脸长，就是不好看啊。
孙菲菲，就是长相不大气，可以演清纯的民家少女，但是，没有公主的那种高贵气质。真的只是小家碧玉啊。
剩下的角色似乎都不错。焦恩俊造型很符合金蛇郎君的形象，风流倜傥，而且长得就很深情。只不过他还没出来呢，不知道演得如何？萧淑慎，真的是美女，演的又是毒辣的角色，就更有一种致命吸引力。（单看造型，我觉得她都比孙菲菲适合公主）
整体而言，我觉得佘诗曼版的好太多了。关键是，佘诗曼太美了，一笑倾城，再笑倾国。而且她的气质多变，可以演可爱的小女孩，也可以演高贵的公主。天哪，她真得太美了，演技有那么好。在我眼里，她演什么都没人能超越了。
江华，也是标准的夏雪宜。他目光中有一种坚定，一种深情，一种不羁，一种正义。


总而言之，我对张纪中翻拍的金庸剧都大大的鄙视。而且，他到底会不会选演员啊？说真的，大陆这些版本的女主角都不如香港版的，不够脱俗。男主角好像都缺了一种气质。唉，是先入为主的感觉吗？

Wandering between two languages…

Recently I'm just so engrossed in Chinese novels. It all starts when I decide to be an anti-socialist. I don't want to talk to anyone in school but I can't just let myself sit there like an idiot while everyone else is talking to one another happily. So at least I must have something to do. Sending messages is costly, and creating posts for my blog is not applicable all the time because I really don't have so many things to say. Thank god, there's still one thing left. I can download e-books and read. There begins my great e-book journey. I have stored at least 10 different types of book, but I'm only interested in one type.

武侠小说。我已经读了好几本了。当然，跟真正的武侠迷比较起来， I'm at most qualified as a beginner. 说真的，汉语的博大精深让我又一次叹为观止。

刚开始想找些恐怖故事，随即意识到读这种故事就是自己吓自己，长大没出息的表现。于是我毅然转为悬疑小说迷。无奈的是下载了那么多自称悬疑小说的故事，但是大部分都是都市男女的爱情故事，让我大跌眼镜。悬疑内容可谓少之又少，连个陪衬角色都算不上，充其量是个路人甲。有一本还是纯灰姑娘白马王子型的，我看了开头就直接奔结尾，就这都让我牙痒痒的，对这种写文章写到天花乱坠，估计连写灰姑娘的安徒生都会在浪漫程度及不可能程度方面自愧不如，以及极其不负责任给广大平凡如我的少女制造了不可能的美梦的作者实在是嗤之以鼻。

又谈到哪里去了。话说我受朋友推荐读了一本蔡骏的《旋转门》之后，就怀疑此人的那本《荒村公寓》到底是怎么火起来的。《旋转门》给我的感觉就是一个三流写手的作品，逻辑性都不强，而且内容太过老套，仿造，很容易让我想起我看过的几部科幻片，没意思。估计广大观众也觉得没意思，所以这本书封面上写的只能是"《荒村公寓》作者又一力作"之类的话，用来告诉有品牌追逐思想的孩子们这个牌子又出新货了，买吧。It's kind of buying book in Singapore. I'm only attracted by books with "best-seller" on its cover, instead of books with "from the author of the best seller xxx". Because in my opinion, this way of publicity is like telling people this book has nothing attractive inside except that it's from a best-selling author. Well, I'd rather say I'm narrow-minded.

还是没谈到重点上！天呐。让我的思路再凝成一条线吧。Let me just focus. 我读的下一本《相思门》，却引发了我对武侠小说起码到现在还存在的浓厚兴趣。恕我愚昧，经典的武侠小说如金庸，古龙的没度过几本。金庸的我只记得《射雕》，古龙的《陆小凤》倒是给我留下了很深的印象，接着又读了《圆月弯刀》等。让我印象深刻的有两点（我中文尤其是武侠理解能力偏低下，所以感想可笑之处请不要肆无忌惮不给面子的鄙视我）：一是，古龙像金庸一样描写战斗中动作很少，因为他笔下大部分英雄都在刀未出手时，已杀死对方。按书中的说法，就是人刀合一；按读书时我脑海中不由自主浮现出的场面，就是"用眼神杀死你。"二是，古龙酷爱分段，而且都是在极吊胃口的地方分，甩出一个极带有恐怖色彩的否定句让人不由得心中一慌；于是急急把眼神移下，却发现下段也是一句话，肯定句，而且内容呼应上段尾，只是不得不让人无语，大部分都发挥着把上文的恐怖色彩抹去，换成目瞪口呆的无奈之"奇效"。

 

《相思门》中我多多少少看到了其作者妄图模仿《陆小凤》的感觉，就是酷爱分段那方面。其他的一般，但情节却着实不错，尽管逻辑让我。。。在我看了那个作者的一些别的作品后，我就改看步非烟的《剑侠情缘》，此书大部分方面还不好说，"长"却是一大特色，因为我用了看《相思门》三倍的时间看《剑》还没看完。

 

I haven't been writing so much in Chinese for a long time. It's a strange thing. When I'm not writing, I don't feel like writing; but once I force myself to write something, I cannot stop.

 

He Miao, Yu Yao, Liang Xu, Shi Wen, Dantong and I went to NUS for supper yesterday. Actually I was there originally for a meeting. It was supposed to be no more than an hour and started at 1630. But the "passionate" speaker's talk seemed never-ending. He was so slow and yet he never took care of the time. It was late and still he could spare time to tell lame jokes which nearly drove me crazy as I was one and a half hours late for my date. On top of everything, only half of minute of his 3-hour long speech which was made up of half jokes and half laughter was useful to me. To be very serious, I didn't really think he was an effective leader, though, apparently, I had no stand or right to criticize anyone as I myself was not capable at all.

Whenever I'm free, I'll start thinking about him. His name filled my mind. I just can't let it go. I just can't.

So I'll keep myself busy. Yes, this is the way. I'll be back in June. Everything's okay. That's it.

I can't ask...

I'm really afraid. When I met his friend online, all I wished was to ask about him, and yet I dared not.
I can't allow myself to go on like this. I'm falling and there's no end to my suffering.
I want to know something about him. How's the result of his recent exams? How is his life? Of course I can get the info if I want but I'll have to think of the consequences. I'm just disturbing his life. I'm only, and forever, an outsider. I don't want either him or his friends to despise me.

How troublesome! I'll never find a solution. How I wish to see him in June! But what's the point? I keep telling myself there's just no chance. Maybe I care for him because I regard him as a good friend. But really, this reason is never sound.

又做了一次emo的孩子。。。

每次去Raffles，梁旭就很受不了我，说你能不能别再emo了赶快integrate赶快干点正事儿吧。我就很无奈。。。
我估计我这阵子写的posts都能出本“悲伤逆流成河”了。上篇是在情绪不稳定的情况下搞定的，没想到会有这么多朋友读到，仔细想了想，发现astrigue这个名字太明显了。。。
Anyway life goes on.
燕雀焉知鸿鹄之志？我一心想做个“一览众山小”的脱俗之人，却发现自己却在这些本该属于小孩子的烦恼里越陷越深。

It's okay. It's all right.
其实所有的一切都被我放大了，呵呵，所以小题大做了。烦恼抱怨也就是这么产生的吧
但还是谢谢大家的鼓励。

CCA Event Reflection

I've been helping as a facilitator in a CCA event for two days and life has been horrible. In the first morning I got on the wrong bus and it took me around 2 hours to just get to the destination. When I finally arrived at Raffles, I then had a hard time finding others. Worst of all, I failed to be a competent facilitator. I couldn't speak English properly which made me unwilling to communicate with my groupmates. My partner never appeared.
在top school就可以目中无人吗？
On the second day the situation just got worse. One team from the Pioneer secondary quitted. I got one Raffles Girls' School team instead. The game we played required high english pronounciation skills. I know how badly i did and I felt sorry for some of them.
但我却不会对某几个女的感到抱歉。当我还在磕磕绊绊念题的时候，有一个冲着刚走进来的RJC的学长说" she sucks." 这话我听的情楚，但却让我的内疚感消失了。人都是自私的，Yes. I'm shameful for being such a stupid facilitator. 但我更在乎别人对我的羞辱。因此我只觉得心里很轻松，因为我对她们的那些愧疚没了。是啊，在一群没道德的妓女面前，傻子也太高尚了。


This event has brought some more hopelessness to my miserable life. I feel I don't deserve to stay in Astronomy Club.
我看清了自己。我永远是给集体抹黑的人。我控制不了自己的脾气。也许大家都发现了我心理有病。我也没什么脸再见我的club president了。我仍然是那个只会把事情搞砸的笨蛋。我仍然不愿做文明人，只想做随时可以骂人的农民。我突然想毁灭这个世界，突然想破坏所有这里的活动。哈哈，我想起了刘鹏飞。他是第一个跟我说他的理想是把地球毁了的人。当时我鄙视他 现在我和他差不多。 我觉得前途缈茫。在哪里都没我的立足之地，我不想留下再给别人添麻烦了。

洛神——水中仙

长河夕照花依稀
壳中悲鸟别故地
江山怎胜你娇美
美德普照大地

蛾眉淡扫水中仙
孤舟漂泊为见面
苍生只待你一笑
百花千里露红艳

乱世中断肠梦
飘影偏似痛未痛
乱世花
半生耗尽爱未浓

情难许断肠泪
怨秋色要退未退
乱世花
只身往复逐流水

明眸若雪映丹心
空山新雨暂借问
今朝惜别你一笑
教生死也独遗恨

风借问芳草惹不惹恨



当时为了蔡少芬的《洛神》感动了好久 除了马浚伟长得不咋地了点 其他的都好完美

但毕竟是悲剧

非常喜欢主题曲里的词 觉得很感人

剪了头发

不理智的我找了家10块新币的店剪了五分钟。。。效果horrible
当我排着队在店门口等候时，一堆一堆的逛街者向我们投来同情的目光。当时我就感觉跟要上刑场似的。

终于我的头发短了，虽然说我觉得现在比以前更弱智，但是。。。never regret