Vulgarism

Yesterday I went for an us university talk. Well I'm really depressed, in many ways. I feel I'm hopeless again. Liangxu said I used too much vulgarism in my blog. What more can I say? 骂人让我感觉爽…为什么呢？也许是因为我从小习惯了粗俗吧。有时想，我就是个毫无度量的粗人，干嘛要逼自己用文明的语言说的不过瘾呢…但是，再想想，又觉得是自己太空虚，太懦弱，所以才想表现得盛气凌人些…不管如何，我还是我…我知道自己干不成大事，所以就颓废吧，自我堕落吧，哈哈