20 Nov 2010

No S/U this term

I've made the decision. So no regrets.

16 Nov 2010

Or you just think that you are the sole representative of the truth?

I don't understand any of this.
I have absolutely no idea what Liu Xiaobo has actually done, or whether he really deserves a Nobel Peace Prize. This article in "The Economist" is suggesting that China is threatening all the western leaders not to attend the Oslo dinner. And because of the immense power China has over the world's economy, it is very likely that those countries that are "eager for business" will not take part in "this political game".
It seems to me that this author is criticizing a lot of people. China is, in his opinion, suppressing human rights by not releasing Liu Xiaobo. Western leaders, such as James Cameron and Nicolas Sarkozy, have to bow to China for the sake of their economy. It's as if the Chinese Communist Party resembles the Nazis.
To me, this article merely shows how hypocritical the westerners are. If they really put the human rights issue as their top priority, as they always claim, then why not just boycott China? Why not cut off their relationship with China as a protest of the so-called "abuse of human rights"? Because they can't! They have to deal with their economy problems before they can have any mood to join the "let's kick the Chinese out of earth" team.
This proves that in any country human right is nothing compared with money. This is harsh, but true. Then how can one blame China for imprisoning Liu, even if this really involves any "abuse of human rights"? Releasing him would most likely cause political instability which could take China's economy all the way back to the 1960s. No one could or should risk this. In fact, what the Chinese government has chosen to do is perfectly reasonable and helpful.
Surely you can talk about human rights any time you want when you are just this little guy whose main job is to write articles to feed himself. I completely understand. If you did not act as if you are a big supporter of human rights, who will read your article or pay you? But let's face it, if you were a leader of any country, you would only be able to come out with stupid plans by all the time talking about human rights instead of the economy.

4 Nov 2010

The probable direction I should follow in NTU

...That I may never have a solution to. But I'd say I'm starting to figure out how to reduce my anxiety now. I should work as hard as I can, just to be responsible for myself, for I may never have another opportunity to learn as an undergraduate. As for how the grading system would judge me, that's something I cannot control, and therefore something I should care less for...

2 Nov 2010

Take my life away

这几天看见什么都烦。在熬了无数夜考了各种试之后,依然没有一件事让我满意。昨晚为了那个对我来说难以理解的vector in geometry 和 vector in coordinate system,我盯着书一直看到早上5点。于是被我妈骂。是的,我是没有学习技巧。昨晚最应该做的是做几道题然后洗洗睡了。我犯了两个致命错误,钻牛角尖和熬夜。能说什么的?学习技巧到底TMD是什么?如果我做的事情都是错误的,那拜托了,让我被车撞死吧,让我被高空坠物砸死吧。如果我这种思想模式真的是TMD大错特错的话,那么上帝你能不能赶快把我从这世界删除了?何必让我活得如此累?然后看着一帮活着比我轻松的人从我身边走过,轻描淡写的告诉我,谁让你思维方式错误了呢?为什么你们的就是对的我的就是错的?凭什么考试总青睐你们的思维方式,而鄙视我的想法?
我受够了。Why live in this world as such a big big mistake? 老天爷,你看着我这么劳累地活着觉得好笑吗?你看着我和这个世界格格不入没有人能理解我你很舒服么?难道你让我出生的唯一原因就是想把我当一个笑话看吗?如果是这样,take my life away, would you? I don't want to live like this! I just want a simple life, that's all!