Welcome to wherever you are

I really love this song.

Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden
Running to our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You are caught between just who you are
And who you want to be
If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning
Is some beginning's end
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
When everybody's in
And you're left out
And you feel drowning
In a shadow of the dawn
Everyone's a miracle
In their own way
Just listen to yourself
Not what other people say
When it seems you're lost alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different
Just take a look around
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star
When you want to give up
And your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect
God's make no mistakes
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life
You made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
(Welcome to wherever you are)
(This is your life)
(You made it this far)
I say welcome
(Welcome to wherever you are)
(This is your life)
(You made it this far)
I say welcome
(You got to believe)
Welcome

Whenever I feel depressed, I would listen to this song. I love Bon Jovi's voice. I love it when he sings "When you want to give up And your heart's about to break Remember that you're perfect God's make no mistakes". Now I feel like giving up. I want to quit this fucking exam and just enjoy what I like. But I cannot. I know clearly what I want. Yes, my heart is about to break, yet I am holding on. I know I am perfect. I'm lacking something that I may never be able to get, but I'm holding on because I must something of my own. My friends, my family. God's made no mistake. If I am here, alive in this world, I must be something extraordinary.

This is what I tell myself when I want to give up. I believe I can finish the exam, no matter what a failure I have been. Faith is the only thing I'm left with. If I don't even believe in myself, I'm losing everything, much more than what I have lost now.

自卑

自卑让我一直活在煎熬中

其实我不在乎别人说我虚伪.

有谁可以体会我真正的感觉呢?

不管结果是什么,

也许真有人觉得我喜欢一瞬间的欣喜若狂(如果可以这么夸张的形容的话)

其实我唯一能感受到的,只是这期间的痛苦,把人折磨得不像样.

自卑只给我的生活带来灰暗.

逆转裁判

超好玩的律师游戏。在经历了N个日日夜夜后我终于把第二部打翻了。最后一部竟然见到了御剑怜侍……从来没见过这么帅的检事。前几部的狩魔和亚内简直像白痴似的，成步堂那个刺猬头都比他们能看……御剑真不是一般的，每次成步堂要失败时他都会伸出援手，对自己的胜败都可以暂时置之不理，他永远只坚持正义。成步堂也不错了，主要原因是我控制的。

整个玩完了后就像看完了部电视剧似的，那个成步堂的女朋友，真宵，实在是……长得像元宵啊，而且还是灵媒师……Speechless. 我玩的有真宵的第一部就是成步堂失忆了，然后知道那一集的结尾我才知道这女的原来是他女朋友……

不管怎么说，御剑怜侍实在是强。完美的检事啊。

The Green Mile绿里奇迹

"I dreamed of you. I dreamed you were wondering in the dark. And so was I. And we found each other. We found each other in the dark."

"On the day of my judgment, when I stand before god, and he asks me why did I kill one of his true miracles. What am I going to say? That it was my job?"

John Coffey is a miracle.

The story happened in the Green Mile, Block E of a prison. John Coffey, an enormous black man, entered the Mile. He was sentenced death as he raped and killed two little girls.

But he didn't seem evil at all. He was afraid of dark. He was kind and helpful. On top of all, he had a kind of miraculous power gifted by the god. With his hand, he cured Paul's bladder infection. When Percy, a sinister prison guard who always wanted to bully the prisoners, trampled the only company of a prisoner-a mouse-to death, John used his power and saved the mouse.

Finally on his way to help cure the warden's wife who had a malignant tumor, another killer in prison, Billy, held his hand, and at this point of time, he felt the truth. After curing the lady, he didn't let the black snow out of his mouth, which made him enormously weak. Then, after getting back, he transferred the snow of evil to Percy, who then killed Billy, and who himself at last became a patient at the local madhouse.

Then he revealed the truth. It was Billy who raped and killed the two little girls, not him. He felt this when Billy held his hand. And he made both Percy and Billy suffer.

But no one could help John Coffey. Finally he died in front of the swearing parents' of the dead girls and others who resented him for killing. He never got a chance to claim himself innocent.

I thought the story was wonderful. It really grabbed my heart. Tom Hanks was great. But I really like the John Coffey better.

Stephen King is a genius. From the Shawshank Redemption to the Green Mile, his stories are unforgettable and they touch my heart.

Physics? Biology?

After talking with my seniors about which subject I should take, I am confused again on having Physics or Biology. Well, Physics seems a lot easier, as I see it. But isn't Biology more suitable to me? I don't know. I simply think it must be a lot more interesting to study creatures, than to discover the inter-connected relationship between substances. Physics theory is damn boring to me, although I dislike reciting Biology terms, either

Thrillingly breath-taking

Movie:The Last Samurai

Starring: Tom Cruise, Ken Watanabe

The way of Samurai

The Spirit of Samurai

"Because they come to destroy what I have come to love." Fabulous.

"You believe, a man can change his destiny?"

"…a man does he can, until his destiny is revealed"

"And so the days of the Samurai had end. Nations, like men, as it is sometimes said, have their own destinies."

Among all the movies that I have watched recently, "The Last Samurai" is the most touching and passionate one.

I have seen the idea bravery being expressed variously in all kinds of hero movies. Heroes die for their beliefs. "The Last Samurai" is about tradition, culture and beliefs. There's a battle between swords and rifles. It's obvious that swords have got little advantage over rifles. I'm not here to discuss which side has won, which there's really no need to mention. Technologies develop rapidly and as the weapons are getting more and more complicated; our minds need to become simpler.

Unfortunately this is proved impossible for most of us. It's like this. I mean, well, men invent weapons, so as weapons become modern, men must become "moderner" to suit the society.

Just this morning I heard people talking that it is really necessary to be hypocritical when you go to work, 'cos if not you will never be able get along well with other hypocrites, and consequently become ill-treated by your boss. I must say that this is a sad fact, which all of us must accept. I started to wonder if there's still something real in this world.

Now, after watching the movie, I somehow generated some power to face the cruel reality. I have seen the road of keeping one's own belief is really not smooth. However, it is possible, if you are willing to die to defend your belief. Pursuing in your own direction is just so hard, but nothing's harder than to betray your heart, a way that I have reasons to believe I will not choose.

I admire all the samurais, the symbols of bravery, not really because what they have done is glorious, but that it is an extraordinary act to pursue your beliefs consistently when you know death is probably your final destiny.

"You believe, a man can change his destiny?"

"…a man does he can, until his destiny is revealed"

Why not?

I can't change my destiny, in a way. However, in another way, I myself am the only one who is able to create my destiny.

I would die to defend my love and my belief. Never mind it sounds too ideal. It's a movie, precisely, but then, it is also a life, is it not?

Finally "O"Level

Physics practical sucks.
The teachers suck.
I let myself down again, on such an important occasion, once in a lifetime.
Shit.
Gotta move on anyway.
Try to catch up.